Sickness...Why???

Last time I posted I am experiencing fatigue, today my body gave up.  I fell ill.  Victor and I got a lot of plans this evening.  After I am done with my student in piano, we have to go to mall to pay my credit card bills, look for the sleeve or bag or whatever protection I can give on my tablet, answer for the meeting tomorrow. Today was also a hectic day in the office.  After completing my weekly routine on Thursday I felt different.  My whole body aches specially my back.  I thought this is another fatigue attacks but I was wrong.  My knees started to get numb and I cannot even speak clearly.  I got a  husky/hoarse voice and no energy.

I took a nap for 30 mins in the office and when I wake up I got some energy.  I thought I'll be fine.  Not when I reached home.  Victor gave me some massage at the back since I was complaining about it for the last couple of days.  Again I took a nap for 30 mins while Victor has to run back to Manama.  My student came and I gave lesson but I already got a temperature.  While waiting for Victor I felt cold and I knew this is bad.

Now I took some meds and I will take some rest after this blog.  While I am listening for tomorrow's article, I hope I can answer on tomorrow's meeting.

I really hate being sick.  It immobilizes me with the things I should have been doing. :((

Fatigue Attacks

         I think this goes to all people who are working full time and still tries to do more things after work.  I am, again, facing this tough time where my schedule does not fit in 24 hrs time.  Of course we can't have more than 24 hrs in a day so it goes on pending tasks in a week.  The spare time that you for the weekend and family day will be occupied.

           I recently accepted some piano and academic students because we need to adjust our income to fit this month's budget.  Now, after a tiring day at work and commuting for almost an hour, I still have to teach.  Though I know these are blessings, having students and earn some money, my body sometimes cannot handle all these.

          When I got married 5 years ago I had this feeling of being sick and tired even after waking up in the morning.  I cannot even eat properly because all I wanted is to sleep because I feel tired but I cannot get a good sleep either.  A small task needs a big effort from me.  Now, that feeling is coming back.  I am pretty sure stress really contributes on these attacks.  Normally, I can sleep  7 to 8 hrs a day and when my alarm clocks rings, I even snooze it 10 more minutes and get back dreaming.  Nowadays, I wake up after 6 hrs of sleep. I am feeling anxious of something which I don't know what.  I just wait for the alarm clock's rings and turn it off and start preparing for office.

          And having this kind of condition, going to office is the  heaviest part of all.  The frustrating career that I have, the people, the work, all contributes in this condition.  I may need to find a new atmosphere because I have been sitting in the same place and chair for the last 4 years and  I really need a break or much better break free from here.  It's starting to feel like a prison now.

        The saddest part of this is that after all the effort of trying to do all your best you cannot see any results of your efforts. I really wish the new system of this comes as soon as possible but not as per my will but God's will.